An update

Still out of work and desperately poor. I'm at the point where I don't know if I'll make it though the month. I haven't made rent yet and unemployment is running out soon. Might get extended, I don't know. All this stress has completely locked me down art-wise. I haven't been able to draw anything in months which sucks because I have a lot of outstanding commission orders that need to be done. This make me feel absolutely terrible. It's constantly on my mind how long these incredibly patient people have had to wait. It just adds to the stress that's keeping me from drawing. It's a horrible snowball effect. Stress and depression lead to artblock. Artblock leads to more stress and depression which leads to more artblock. I can't support myself on my art but I could be making some money if I could just draw again! And I can't in good conscience accept any new commission orders when I have so many that need to be done.

Well, anyway, I don't know what's going to happen. I very likely may be homeless soon. It's horrible how many times I've had to say that in the past few years. I'm just so glad I've always been able to scrape by with the help of friends and family and selling what little I have for whatever I could get for it. But, that this point, my parents can't help and I've sold nearly every thing I own of any value. If I can't find a job this month... you might not hear from me much anymore.

I wish I could offer commissions. That would really help right now. I suppose if any of you who understand that I absolutely have to get my current commissions done first and are willing to wait, possibly, several months really want to help out and order a commission I'll accept. I just hate to put more pressure on my head but I also really don't want to be homeless.

Anyway, that's where I am now, in case anyone is wondering. And to the people I owe commissions to, I have not forgotten you and I am so very sorry. Thank you all for being so patient with with me. I only hope that I can produce something for each of you that's worth the wait.

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